Good, Better, Best.

“To see what is, without judgment or fear, is to unlock (the) freedom...” – Anonymous

I realized something poignant today.

I want something that someone could give to anyone. But, instead, chooses to give it to just me.

It is a rare occurrence when I offer up my heart, my romance, my thoughts, my efforts and my time to someone. It can be incredibly frustrating how unintentionally, yet deeply selective, I can be when trying to find and allowing a romantic connection with another. But, when I do, I really do.

I'm realizing that it's a gift. The level of depth, detail, thought, energy, effort, and care I give to an ignited heart is unmatched. And, I don't want to give that to just anyone. I can't. The value I bring is not to be handed to just anyone.

I felt like something was wrong with me because I hadn't found anyone I was interested in or connected with in the ways I wanted, and I hadn't been on a date in the past year. But that's exactly the point. I had a few casual, fun encounters, but nothing serious. Thinking back, I hadn't met anyone that captured me until the day I met her, one year after my breakup. Everyone operates differently. But for me, (fun & casual aside), I don't rush from one person to the next because my time and effort are what I value most. Intention. I loved what she brought out of me. I loved who I was in that short period of time. It's rare, but it's there.

So, I know that whoever I connect with next that it will be of depth, a meaningful connection and one that will be worth the effort and time as she was...but different.

…a heart that loves deeply, but refuses to be handled carelessly…

Be rare.